NUMB with it? or DEAD with those?

我只能眼阵阵的看着你的快乐和幸福····················
我希望你会根幸福·······

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很痛，真的很痛····

【最好的朋友，好朋友，Close的朋友 & 普通朋友】

现在，我已经不会分辨每个的意识了···

这些字都有差别吗？

我已经没感觉了···

因为····

我已经麻木和死了···


如果真的能离开哪也许会跟好吧？？

Another bad one`

为什么不说心里话?`

Outside Im one`
Inside Im another one`
Im different than you thought`
Life's tough, live it!
Since life's tough, why dont one face life happier at happier place, situations or country which could oso lead one's life even brighter & more brilliant??

Fill them up with more happier moods at some other place maybe even better? Right??
Everyday's routines must still go on`
Memories and histories are gonna be sticked in one's brain & memory daily`
Memories & Histories are fixed to one's memory`
It's hard to forget those events wic are unhappy, hurt and sad`

I WANT LIFE THAT ARE FILLED WITH LAUGHTER & HAPPINESS INSTEAD OF LIKE NOW`
I DONT WANT UNHAPPY, SAD, HURTFUL & DULL LIFE!!!  :'(

为什么呢？

为什么我的命就是这样的？


永远没人会发现到我的付出和我的默默的付出？


为什么人人都只是看到我的缺点，没尝试的看我的优点？



为什么？？？？？！！

ANTI KAIKAI! =.=!

Yesterday night`

Ah Ley (Shirley) brought her birthday letter that Sukee had given her during her birthday`
Well, its about Friendship that they had been walking tgt since Kindergarten ( almost 13 years ) !
Whoot! Wow! Its damn touching!!
Even me, myself and Joan, read the letter till teardroped!
It is really really touching and awesome to have such friends who had been such long's friendship and she treasured everything so much` AWESOME!!
Wish i could have this type of feelings too`
I told Ah Ley, " Ley ah, u so lucky to have such long and best fren and oso a best fren who treasured the both friendship of you both! Nice ard! must treasure ar` "
Then, without knowing the reasons why of myself teardroped for quite sometime!

Today's`

Phew, maybe due to some of my bad things or bad wounds had cause these to happen, (teardrops easily)
Recently, can almost say eveyday at least i will *** once a day`
NOT PMS okay! =.= ( Khas untuk Benjamin Tey )

Mostly, its cos of Friendship & Studies problems!

Dont have to say way too far, my BI's marks,
can say mostly is the highest among my class ( not trying to show off o, tq )
But now???!
Im dropping like HELL!!
Mostly, i always have at least a no starting with 8X%
but now? its dropping vry badly!!!
Just SIMPLE QUESTIONS ( informations transfer )
I cant even get at least 80%?????!! WTF!!!
What's goin on??!
ANG KAIKAI! damn disappointed toward u! SHIT!
Wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Other than BI subjects, mostly others cant see la!
WTH! DAMN! ANG KAI KAI!!!!
U MUST NOT BE SHIT ANYMORE!!!
Slaps and wake up! =.=!!!

PK2 results SUCKS!
Everything bout mysef SUCKS!
Marks SUCKS!
EVRYTHING REALTED to me all SUCKS!
SHIT!
What had happened???!
HATE IT!!!!!!
U NEED TO CHANGE!!!!

WAKE UP!!!

=.= !

Hoping for it`

Today I was kinda sad inside my heart when i got my PK2 results`
Phew` Yesterday teardroped`
Today, crying inside heart`
Well, its not totally bad thou!
At such sudden, i was chatting with Jasmine and gang,
then Ngasian appeared out of the blue to us`
Declaring the result of Bio in PK2`
She said to Yimay`
Yimay! ni de Bio na XX%, wo na XX%! hehehe
Then, i was like, die jiu die la!
So, i asked Ngasian, what about me??
She answer, Jiemin said :
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(TO BE CONTINUE)

Hoping for the good news! Will update once i got the truth! :)

KAIKAI JIAYOU!!!!! > < '