F M L ! ! =.=!

FML ! =.=

My life always fills with these nonsense !
Damn!
I hate it !

I really dont get it !
Why are everything that always happen around me always sucks ?!
ESPECIALLY FRIENDSHIP ! ! =(
I spent so much to get the best for all, BUT
In the end i got bad things back! =(

Last time when RAIO was in bad & quarreling condition,
R wrote a letter trying to speak out all the truth whether its good or bad.
Its all there!
Its good thou.
At least I know what is she thinking all these years.
But one thing, im not admitting is saying bout myself between his & her's realationship.
Im not the ONLY ONE who forced them to get together and I didnt FORCE them either.
Behind all these, IM NOT the only one,
BUT obviously, I alone myself gets all the BLAME.
Well, its allright. Everything had back to its status quo right now about this topic.
Its considered HISTORY , considered PAST TENSE.
Therefore, theres nothing to blame or think of anything, anyone, or anytime.

NEXT
When I got into a relationship that time,
I know its already a mistake to choose the partner.
But, since i did.
Then, just make things continue with better ways.
Most importantly, purpose of mine getting into this relationship is
I wanna change the partner's attitude and obviously,
I know he cares lotsa for me, Thank you.
But as time goes by, things changed making everytthing goes KAPUT!
Well, based on those and several reasons we ended.
Between this relationship, i got to hear something uninviting and unhappy or even anger.
But then, time past. Things got better.
Again, its past tense, history.

NOW
I got all the blame again from MISSY X.
There are 3 of us together with him.
But ended up that Missy trying to get things worst.
Im not the one who invited that guy out.
But to her, it seems like it was me who did all these.
Fine, one thing Missy u got to know.
You yourself have your own life own new relationship.
Why the HECK do you need to think of your OLD one ??!
You gave me a feeling like you always wanted to live in the PAST!
MY PAST means 'PAST' [Perhaps, only some may get the meaning]
Last time when you are with him, you want your EX.
Now that you have got your WANTED SO MUCH LOVER [EX]
U still stick to him la.
The guy that love you so much you dumped him and get to him without any feelings,
You want cari pasal pulak.
You and him are not together already what.
But what for do u need to care him so much as he hangout with his friends?!
Is this what you should be doin right now?
Everytime when you got broke up with your guy, you will put the blame on them.
You will say like its totally not your fault.
Well, but most of the time you are the one who got all these.
You should BLAME your own too.
Friends around you kept quiet because we dont wanna get involved and hurt you.
NOW, this time. Im bloody FLARED UP towards you!
You said all those as your status on me.
YOU are way too far, MISSY !!!

Allright, to make this post short or to get the main point is that ------
I M ALWAYS THE ONE WHO GOT THE BLAME AND EVERYTIME WHEN THE BLAME WAS ON ME, WASNT REALLY IM THE MAIN ONE. PERHAPS SOMETIMES I DO GET INVOLVED. BUT I ALWAYS GETS THE MAIN CHARACTER PLACE [THE MOST BAD OF ALL SITUATIONS] ALTHOUGH MOST OF THE TIME THE ONE WHO STARTED THESE WERE OTHERS. BUT IN THE END, IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO CAUSED EVERYTHING !!

DAMN ! I HATE THESE FEELINGS !


DAMN IT! FUCK MY LIFE !!!!!