Leftout :(

These days, i kept being left out by you`
Sigh...........................

Time flies`
Days past`

AND

I cant keep it anymore!
Im seriously and very tired ! :(

Seriously, after the letter, evrything changed!!!
These days, I really tried not to control and tried to changed my ways of communicating with you`
But, things seemed to be very hard for me to get us back as before`
Sigh`
I wanted to share and cheers my school time with you but you are always not around`
You kept goin to the other place and once you sat there, its gonna be long`
I kept quiet, i tried to bear with those`
Well, obviously I cant stand anymore`
Hey, i kept quiet all the time doesnt mean I like it, you know?
When you tell me that you wanna shift yr place, i still answer your quest with a smile`
But, honestly, my heart felt empty once everytime you moved away`
I guess you never notice this`

Well, its all right`
Saying bout kinda recent matters`
You said i never told you bout the 'matter'`
But, hey, lets flash back`
If I were to tell you`
How could i tell??
You are not at the place (Next to me)`
You had always been shifting to the other gang`
How do I suppose to tell you all those`

Another reason, i really thought you knew it at the first place`
Trust me, i really do think so`
I thought my girl will tell you what happened to us and its not really a happy case`
That's why i didnt tell you`
Besides, you are one very determine in studies`
Im rally scared you wouldnt like to know bout this too much, as you faced your last tragedy was also a sad one`
I really dont want you to think back of your sad tragedy`

This morning, as our class were busy discussing with the class's jamuan`
You were as usual, with the gangs`
and the gang gave lotsa comments where actually mostly all of us dont really like it`
But, look at your reactions`
Sigh, its annoying ---- noted!

Well, i dont have any intention to backstab you or anything`
Just sharing my this feelings out as there's no one for me to share with`
So, I hope you wouldnt get misunderstood with these`

SORRY FOR THE PAST`

BUT I damn wish we could be as close, cheerful and happy like before together` :"(

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

Lyrics to Wish You Were Here :
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it’s not like that at all
There’s a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it
And I remember all those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn’t think about it, just went with it
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[chorus]
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
I love the way you are
It’s who I am
Don’t have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really miss
All those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn’t think about it, just went with it
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[chorus]

Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
No, I don’t want to let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go (repeats)
[chorus]
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
(Grazie a Simona per questo testo)
I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, it’s not like that at all
There’s a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it
And I remember all those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn’t think about it, just went with it
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[chorus]
Damn
Damn
Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
I love the way you are
It’s who I am
Don’t have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really miss
All those crazy things ya said
You left them running through my head
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
All those crazy things we did
Didn’t think about it, just went with it
You’re always there
You’re everywhere
But right now I wish you were here
[chorus]
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you here, here, here.
(I wish you were here)
Damn Damn Damn
What I’d do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)
No, I don’t want to let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go (repeats)
(chorus)

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting


It couldn't be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core



But hold your breath



Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind



I won't live to see another day

I swear its true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find



This is not what I intended

I always swore to you that I would never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed

But I have loved you from the start



Oh, But hold your breath



Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

It's impossible to find



So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in

I'm yours to keep



And hold onto your words

‘Cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight

When you're asleep



Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find



Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you

Over again

Don't make me change my mind

I won't live to see another day

I swear it's true

Because a girl like you is impossible to find

You're impossible to find`
 
:')

Sighhhhh```

I got my 1/2 BI result,
Well my paper 2 doesnt really sounded well` :(
Hope the paper that im getting tmr (paper2) will help me to get the expected marks that i always wanted!!

WISH ME LUCK! :(

Angry but hurts and sad for me too` :'(

Im going straight to the point!!

First, I know you dont feel happy when you got the news bout me and him being together`
I knew it!
Because of this matter too, you and I cold war for about a week+`
Well, I didnt really know you backstabbed me till this far!!
YOU! CAN! SAY! THAT! IM Stupid, bad or whatever!!
BUT YOU ARE NOT FIT ENOUGH TO SAY THAT IM
better known for the things that I do on the mattress!!
DAMN! You can scold anything, i can just remain silent as I dont wanna waste my time!
BUT! SAying bout that MATRESS thing!
DAMN you! YOU are too much!
My reputation just being washed away that way by YOU!
AND! even if my reputation need to be washed away,
THERE's no rights for you to say those things that ive never done before, Ma'am! -.-
And obviously, you have no rights to say me that way too!
**** ~!@#$%^&**(-+)=-`.,;['>]\/?"

Think of your own la, what did you did these days?!
Crazy with boys.
Till like no love at this moment for you its gonna be END OF YOUR LIFE la!
Songs are not for you to use to ---- people like that wan!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGX01uXAKtE!!!!
DAMN!!!!!!!!

~~~

SAD`

Hurt`

Dissappointed`

WHY??!!?

:'(


I WANT MY HAPPINESS BACK!!!!!! =(

-.-

TRIALS OVER!!!!

Friendship problems again -.-

U used to be such high class girl but u like to do all those meaningless events`
Go crazy for boys la, just know eqch other jiu love that boy la`
WHERE's YOUR DIGNITY ANG HIGH CLASS IMAGES????!!?!
Sighhh. Pathetic to see you that way`
But, backstabbing me!
Sureeee i wont let you off easily!!!
I hate this kind of fren!
DAMN!!!!

Think yrsef la!

These days`

Malaysia Day, i went to Melacca with Dad, Mom & Sis`  ♥
We headed to Melacca Mall at the 1st place,
Then to Jusco`
After shopping, comes eating`
we went to Ole Sayang Nyonya Restaurant`
Then to Jonker Street` :D
Pichas!!!

Yesterday, i cheated someone. [ for good things ]
XINYEE GERALZZ, she's the one who was cheated by me`
I did a video for her, its fully bout the both of us`
I hope she really like that`
Well, my mission about this video is to let her teardropped`
But mission go half way! LOL!
She claimed that she almost cried but just left a bit, her tears gonna drop`
Hmmmm, so i'll say it 95% successful then` ♥

As for today,
Had physics papers`
And its a sad case that physics oso dead for me` :(
Well, well , well, Its roughly about a month to go`
SPM!??!??!!
Can i really make it?!
Sigh, that's still a big question mark`

Today after school,
I headed MBO with one of my girl, Missy J to watch
NAMEWEE's NASI LEMAK 2.0!!
Finally, i got to watch it since last friday i missed from my friends ><
Well, something different, funny and nice movie`
There's not much sort of porn kinda thing what?!!
I dont get it why do the government need to end this movie on the cinemas in such hurry =.=!
At the end, Namewee still created a song fully on siding M'sia`
I dont see any bad effects yet on th movie, to be frank`
I kinda like this song and its rhythm`
Have a peek` :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fLgkXy_-Q5w

__________________________________________________________________

Heard something from you guys`
Well, to be frank, when you guys reacted about that matter`
My mood really sweeps totally`
I really work very hard on trying my very best on not crossing over you lines,
but things kept messed up and mistakens keep repeating with us`
I just cant accept this, i reli try very hard with us, but at the end,
there's oways something to mess up our relationship`
:( [Sigh]

Will still be facing Moral on Weds`
Will update soon`
Byes`

Smile, the world is receiving :)

Went to Katherina Hotel for the 1st Joint Installation of HSBP, TIGS & CHS`

it was on 10.9.2011

Theme : Smile, the world is receiving`

Again, photo is the best elaboration :D

Got a paper with 65 words of XXX and 5 roses from you` Thanks for those, but we are just friends. Im not returning for that anymore. Im sorry and thanks again.

It was a great Install if to compared with this year's of ours`

We the outgoing still damn miss the time we had last year`

It was an unforgetable memory`

Its really nice and happy last year`

I MISS MY 2010's INTERACT INSTALLATION,

theme: Together. We create better future :')

Attended this install with Michelle jie, Miya, Joan, Xue & Bryan didi ;)

We had our crazy moments too :)

A good and happy night after all :D

Congrats Sherri & yr comittes ya! :D

Touched ! :')

I just saw Geralzz latest update of her blog !

She kinda gonna fall sick soon's situation!
God, please bless her to no fall sick at this trials period!
PLEASE! May God bless her :)

Hey, girl, dont overstudied and affect yr studies ya! :)
You are close, you are sure to be success!
Be confident to your own! :D

Saw you wrote at yr bloggie too,
saying bout me. you are damn touched!
I m too! Glad to have u! :')

I did the same thing as u too.
I rewatched those videos and pics!
I guess, no one can break our Duet's photos lo!
HAHA! Muacks! Love ya! :D

BUSY !

i hope i could still maintain my mood like this for long time.

Starting tues, i had been flooded with SPM trials examination !

Whoa, im kinda nervous as each day passed~
Reason??? (u must be weird y at begginning i dun feel nervous, right? ) XD
This is becos, 1st day and 2nd day was languages papers, BM & BI ~
Im not that nervous cos, i have managed to crop quite ok.
As for my strongest subject, BI.
I really spend some time on learning more n more words, phrases, verbs and vocabs.
I wanna make this subject to be even more powerful than before!
Since im best at this, i need to fight to make it acheive higher!

3rd day was dad's birthday! I skipped school as im having no exam dat day (BC & PI)
im not involved! XD
so, companied my dad, mom, and sis the whole day.
early morning, dad n mom brought me to buy a new handphone as my phone was broken on tues.
Then, afternoon we headed to DOMINO's Pizza after fetching my sis from school.
Then we headed back home for some rest, then its 4pm i went for add maths tuition.
it was 6pm end of tuition, headed to Daddy's Village for dinner with my family and uncle! :D

At night we had a short shopping to BP Mall on getting a SIM Card for me, as phone broke, SIM card broke too =.=! How lucky im, right? =.=

I bought my Sony Ericsson, Xperia, X8 ! Black in colour, ori set and cost RM 567. I loved it damn muchiesss!!! Thanks DAD & MOM! ^^

More subject are gonna pop up next week! GO everyone and myself too! :D

SPM TRIALS starts tmr!

9 subjects 20 papers!

OMG!

Well, im taking this short opportunity to greet

ALL my friends :

Best of luck!

Gambeteh!

Good luck!!

PRESSURE IS ON, lets start the journey!

GO!!!!!!!

Im sorry, girl`

I just read a blog of my friend. Its really touching and sad too. The post was so long ago. But i dont really read that, that time as it were chinese. When its Chinese i really wont read it. i will only read ireally have the time to do so or kinda.

Saw what you wrote. I have been thinking who's the her might be. Thinking up n forth here and there, left to right, up and down. Only one answer which suits that SHE, and it is me. If im not mistaken.

If that's really ME, im sorry girl. Perhaps u might think that i cared them more then you, then im sorry. But, obviously i have to admit perhaps i really made you think that its hurtful. But, girl i cared them n you too. But, sometimes, when it comes to friends you always keep inside your heart. Mostly especially bout unhappy events, you seldom share out with me, or others.

When my sense told me that you are not doing well, i will ask you for sure. But most of the time, u rejected and u keep them inside your heart. I keep repeating asking you what's wrong?, whats goin on?, what happened?. But mostly, u answer none. you will just say nothing la. Then u will ask me to go read my books. i cared you so much. I even asked you for times, but? did you tell me most of the time??

Perhaps. your thinking was people keep back stabbing people, keep telling others others' stories. Whats the meaning for you to do the same thing too? Am i right? But girl, think back. you are not silly. You are already matured. Even if you tell me, i wont tell others except for some which u oso think they are trustable and reliable.

and girl you keep asking me to put my efforts in my studies, yeah girls thanks lotsa. I noted that. Thanks for your kind care n reminder. I will work on that. But girl, i listened to you, i headed those advices, but what about you, girl? Did you do the same when i gave u pieces of advices?? You will just pretend nothing's wrong. You keep lalala n make it over. But, in my heart i felt broken. My purpose of telling you those is just wishing you take cares of your studies. I know you have always wanted to be the best in your studies. That's not a problem. You can do it for sure, dont worry too much.

But, from my point of view, You gave yourself too much pressure.You can fight with your studies, but your health, its important too, you must take care of it too. I have been keeping these inside for quite some time already. I hope you wont get angry. Feel free, can just come and find me to talk. Im very keen with that. Seriously, i really hope you will be happier being with me and tell me what's wrong when things are really wrong that had happened to you.